HOW AM I SUPPOSED TO MAKE LIFE CHOICES I STILL COUNT USING MY FINGERS
AND I SING THE WHOLE ALPHABET TO SEE WHAT LETTER COMES NEXT
I STILL HOLD UP BOTH HANDS AND MAKE AN L SHAPE TO REMIND MYSELF OF LEFT AND RIGHT
I STILL HAVE TO THINK OF AN ALLIGATOR EATING THE BIGGER NUMBER TO USE THE < AND > SYMBOLS.
I STILL RUN CLUMSILY UP THE STAIRS ON MY HANDS AND FEET LIKE A FREAKIN LEEMUR CHEETAH HYBRID
Sometimes when I’m doing things around the house (fixing stuff, going to the bottle depot, stuff like that) I like to pretend I’m living with my future girlfriend and I’m doing stuff for our house.
I’ve been feeling really down lately. I don’t really want to do anything, even my roleplays are losing activity and I feel bad but the only thing that seems to cheer me up and distract me right now is video games.
Sigh.
ps. I started cutting again.
it’s only been a week and i’m already having glee withdrawals
WHAT DO YOU MEAN ITS ONLY BEEN A WEEK IT HAS FELT LIKE A MONTH